Stale Bread and Contradictions

I have not been blogging... in case you hadn't noticed. HA
I have nothing and everything going on all at once. I am not working anymore at the theater... which makes me sad and happy all at the same time.
We are going through all our stuff deciding what is "worthy" enough to make the trip with us to England. The problem with that is I think everything we have is fantastic and should go... and then reality kicks me in the head and I sigh and start sorting again. {Yes Bill you read that right I have actually been sorting and doing things... all though it looks as though no progress has been made}
Moving overseas is so thrilling and I cannot wait to travel and see some of the sights we will be able to see but as time gets closer I wish I had 30 or 60 more days to go see all the things I should have gone to see three years ago that are close by, 30 more days to go see friends and family that I want to see but have not been able to. More time to go eat at all the restaraunts I will miss for the next four years, more time to work out and stick with it so I can go buy a new wardrobe before leaving. I can't wait to be gone and done with all this and yet each day closer breaks my heart a little more that I am indeed leaving...
I will most likely be crying the first half of the flight to be leaving such amazing friends and my dear family and I know that it is not forever... that we can still talk and all that but change is hard. The only thing going for me to keep my emotions in check is the fact we leave at a craptastic hour, I most likely will not have had soda and I will have to be fake cheery for my confused kiddos.
I know that they have restaraunts and shops in England... even in the tiny semi remote place we are moving to. But I don't know which ones to go to there... here I do. I am a creature of habit. Ridiculously so...Once I find a path to take to someone house I will not alter it... I have driven the same way to Walmart for 4 years now... even though there is different routes... I drive the same way to the library, I order the same meal every time I go to Macaroni Grill - why because it is my favorite and it is so good.
I know I will make friends in England and the ones that I have here will still be my friend but I suck at it. It takes me a LONG time to make friends.
Typing all this out makes me think that I am a semi boring whiner...lol.. So maybe I need some shaking up and apparently that is just what life has in store for us. So while my blog posting is as stale as day old bread these days I hope to have some really great stuff come spring :)

Leaving on a jet plane

So I got the call today that we have been waiting for... the one I wasn't expecting until next week.

It's offical we are headed to England.

I was so relieved that we had an answer and then I was excited because the opportunity it gives us as a family is tremendous. I am sad because I have an amazing group of friends here, my family is close, and the kids have great friends that none of us want to leave.

I start thinking of castles to go see, EuroDisney, traveling to Ireland, Italy wherever liked I have always dreamed and am happy.
Then, I asked how long the flight was....part of it is over 9 hours. Thats the second leg (whuck?) and we have a layover for the ENTIRE day in Amsterdamn. And I have three little boys ... under 6 and I was back to not so excited again.
I am not a Trekkie but why someone has not come up with a teleporter by now so we can beam wherever by now is beyond me. Get on it people !!

Benjamin Makai

Happy Birthday to Benjamin Makai who is two today! I cannot believe that two years ago today I was holding your tiny body in my arms & now you are running and jumping and becoming your own little man with a definitive personality. While getting you into this world was not an easy journey I am so happy and thankful that you are here! You are loved much by all monkey !!

Approx 79 days

Well today we got our port call date... of course we still don't have orders so who knows if I am getting on a plane that day BUT if I am that is about 79 days away. 79 days...WHAT? So as I look around my house and see all this stuff that I have to decide is going with me I am panicked & excited and lazy all at once.
I really am tempted to let people just come "shop" in my house carry out whatever and then thats less to move. I will let you know if I decide to do that :)